FELOGY

2010-10-27T20:56:00.002+08:00

SEE YOU @

www.paradisified.blogspot.com

FEL(:

Hiatus

2010-08-24T18:34:00.000+08:00

Going once, going twice, gone.

2010-07-25T14:10:00.001+08:00

Hate Sec 3 ):

I'm screwed for blocks because I haven't started mugging yet oh no.

And to make things worse I KNOW ABSOLUTELY NOTHING ABOUT PHYSICS AND MATHS. I'm not exaggerating I know it sounds exaggerated but seriously I don't know what I've been doing this whole term.

Crabstick-loads of stuff to do even SIAs and everything else is due alongside blocks holymoly! Why can't the teachers give us a break-we rest, you get to rest too! Right?!

And I think I'm going to screw up my LA speech. Come on, since when have I been an advocate of blood donation!?

Over and out. Feeling panicked.

2010-07-07T21:59:00.000+08:00

I think this has to be the longest time I ever went without updating here haha...it's only 1 month + but seriously it feels like ages. Been wanting to update for a long time ~

School has been hectic. Once term began, everything just kept coming-quizzes, assignments, worksheets, notes, new topics and project deadlines :O Wonder how those with other commitments cope? Or maybe it's just because I like to 临时抱佛脚。-_- And with NYAA it's even busier; though peer tutoring is quite fun, spending time with lively, hyperactive and bubbly p5 pupils is way better than rotting at home! They get mad insane, noisy and uncooperative at times but pretty good kids at heart.^^

Anyway, I absolutely love Taylor Lautner. I mean, just one look at his crazy chocolate abs can send a girl to swoons haha. And he seems like a nice person in reality which makes him even more attractive *cough*. Whereas Edward looks like some washed-out pervy old uncle who memorises romantic lines to pick up young girls; am I the only one who thinks his constant breathing on Bella is creepy? Who wants a vampire smelling you and your blood all the time anyway!?

Werewolves over vampires anyday, just like cockroaches over lizards!

And Bella is a horrible meanie :/ She kisses both guys like no one's business, and then she goes to tell Edward, "I love Jacob but I love you more." If she means it then get on with it and stop leading poor Jacob on man. Psshaw, can't stand heroines like this who are always playing damsel in distress. Get a backbone or something!

Who's your pick?

A summary of a bored pig's life

2010-06-10T00:10:00.001+08:00

From the beginning of June to today:

1. OBS; a strangely unforgettable memory I don't feel like posting about now (LIVINGSTONE ftw!)

2. Zesto street sales; partnered with Zhiyi, getting glared at like we were some dirt under a shoe, getting ignored like we were rocks at the corner of a rocky road, getting avoided like we were some highly contagious viruses, realisation that I would be a horrible salesperson or insurance/housing agent, having to pay for the money we lost=angry! >( Only saving grace was the amazing takoyaki and getting to see everyone again:)

3. PrinceofPersia movie; female lead was hotter than male lead (D:), awesome movie though, nearly died from dinner @ Tangdianwang cos it was so filling, ashamed of the stupid fountain thinggum at Suntec where they shoot colourful light at water and call it a dazzling display for tourists to enjoy, hate people who squeeze on the train it's not like there are any empty seats calling out to you

4. Re-watching Mr Bean episodes and laughing head off. Guilty pleasures rock.

5. Indulgent snacking + sleeping in = Very happy pig (i.e yours truly)

6. Read some crap book about loving your body and found it awfully preachy. Moral of story: Do not read self-esteem books from your mom.

Lastly: I don't know if I'm justified in saying this and I hope I don't offend anyone but god-can people just stop spamming Facebook with SLC stuff? I know it's a big life-changing event for those involved but I'm serious, please get a life and save the AcademyAwards speeches for your own blogs or make a note or whatever.

2010-05-28T20:04:00.001+08:00

Sabbaticals are over! (well, they were over yesterday)

I really dreaded Juggle Art initially but surprisingly it was really fun! Like, I got to learn that juggle art isn't just about throwing and catching many balls but there are also other types of juggling, like flower stick, poi(?), Chinese diabolo(?), plate-spinning, stilt-walking (goodness me I nearly died it was so scary though I only did the short one) and believe it or not-skipping! It's not as easy as everyone thinks, I assumed that it would be just slacking around, but everyone was so focused and hardworking on getting the skill right-it was more tiring than I thought!

And I didn't have classmates around me so I had to fend for myself during the entire week, thankfully, I knew some people over there otherwise I'd be really lost. Still, it was a good experience because I had to be more self-reliant and independent I guess? I also got to know new schoolmates haha, although I'm still hopeless at all the different types of juggle art -_-"

Deaf Awareness was fun but in a different way :/ It's like super quiet and tense in the room because our instructor was deaf, but it was totally whoa when we started learning the basic sign languages. It gets tedious because my memory is -_-, but it was still enlightening. I have increased respect towards deaf people-HOW CAN THEY REMEMBER SO MANY DIFFERENT SIGNS?! And to think that they can even learn to speak like a normal person despite not being able to hear! So cool right. I really liked the course, but some people might have found it boring because you have to sit there the whole time.

Next week's OBS!!!!!! I've been bugging everyone for advice and tips on it, now I'm even more freaked out tsk. Especially the insects-I really really hate lizards and apparently there are lizards everywhere there :S Hopefully I will survive the experience at Resort Pulau Ubin -_- Cross your fingers for me everyone! (:

2010-05-20T21:48:00.002+08:00

Tomorrow is the start of sabbaticals, and I'm going to try my hand at juggling.

Amanda's in as well and I guess it wouldn't hurt to make new friends, but still, I'm disappointed ); Was asking around if anyone in cheerleading wanted to swap identities with me for 5 days but no one was interested!!!! ):

Since I'm apparently fated for juggling, might as well just enjoy myself and stop whining.

Thank goodness I still have deaf awareness with S and YT, and a whole lot of other people! (:

BTW: I decided to read Psych Major Syndrome by Alicia Thompson instead of The Last Song first, I've been hunting for it since forever. It was interesting and a nice read, but didn't really live up to my expectations. You can still read it if you want, cos the storyline is quite unique and the language is better than average YA authors.

2010-05-14T22:57:00.002+08:00

I'm finally in the blogging mood again hoho ~ But I can't find a suitable blogskin so whatever you guys are stuck with this for the meantime HAHAHA!

Okay got back results for Block Tests 1, everything's like average so I don't really feel anything exceptional which is quite sad. But a good thing actually, because I didn't fail anything including Math (miracle!) My dad was only concerned whether my MSG met the minimum requirements to promote to Sec 3 -_- My mom was another story completely hahaha!

So what I've been doing is basically, watching and re-watching old episodes of Family Outing Season 1, trying to read The Last Song, and ignoring functions and graphs. I'm doing a pretty astounding job! Isn't it weird how time can either pass so slowly when you're mugging for tests, or so quickly when you're pigging around after the tests?

Which leads me to Conclusion of the Day: Time is what you make out of it. Fate lies in your own hands!!

So cheem right! *tears of pride streaming down cheeks*

Actually I was intending to post something very meaningful and emotional and touching but seems like I'm not in the right spirit. Another day then. Now I must resume my video spamming and watch more dramas hohoho.

Toodleboodles, have a great weekend everyone! ~

2010-04-22T18:54:00.003+08:00

goodbye world!

2010-04-14T21:29:00.000+08:00

Parents can be so hypocritical sometimes. They tell you to stop doing this and that and go and study, but when they need your help suddenly homework isn't important anymore. They tell you you're going out too much and it's dangerous to come home at night, yet they don't think twice about bringing you places on weekends you're not even interested in going, and they don't offer to send you home since it's late. They tell you not to follow an example, but they go ahead and do it themselves anyway. They accuse you of not telling them anything, but have they really listened when I wanted to say something? They reprimand you for shouting or the like, but when they yell, bang doors, throw their weight around and are permanently in a bad mood, suddenly it's okay.

Or maybe it's just my parents.

2010-04-10T22:05:00.000+08:00

Our juniors lost to NJC 4-1. It was pretty shocking because no offence, we went to the competition in high spirits thinking it was a given that Cdiv would win. Nonetheless, we at least displayed our Nanyang spirit during that day I guess...unity of Bdiv and Cdiv haha! Can't say that I'm not disappointed for their sakes, because they did train very hard for the competition, I guess what we can do is just to work hard for next year and show them we're not to be trifled with.

If it's any consolation, at least our bdiv managed to thrash their bdiv 5-0. I'm going to train harder this year so that if I meet any of those cdiv players in court, I'll be the one doing the thrashing. (and take revenge for cdiv hah)

Anyway, squash aside, life has been just wading through homework in a blur watching every day pass by in a whirl, not knowing what I'm actually doing each minute and trying to remember little details that make my head ache. How far can you stretch 24 hours? So many things to do, so little time, so little motivation. I'm getting more and more irritable and I have no idea why and I feel like a bitch for all the nasty thoughts going through my heads about certain people who annoy me. Geez.

Goodnight world.

2010-04-02T20:23:00.000+08:00

It's Good Friday! Doesn't mean anything much to me because I'm not a Christian, but hey, it's a public holiday! Who's complaining?

I didn't do much today but IH Assignment and Bio SIA, both need more editing and stuff. Maybe I'll try staying up late again, but I always wake up with a splitting headache the next day. After so many years of religiously sleeping early, I guess I'm not programmed to sleeping late and waking up late. M told me to take afternoon naps, but I can't really do that because I'll be a in a horrible mood afterwards haha.

Read If I Stay by Gayle Forman, 2nd time reading but it's still so good. A bit too short, but luckily a sequel is due next year (: Can't wait!

2010-03-28T17:03:00.000+08:00

This weekend has taught me that I really, really have no interest in Science.

I mean, I've always hated Chemistry and Physics, but all along I thought Biology was okay. I even grew to like it actually. But mugging all 3 in order to become a doctor and commit myself to Science when half the cohort (and only in Nanyang!) is pursuing the same field?! I'd rather stay out of the competition, thanks. -_-

I actually put off doing any homework that has to do with Science till today, but I had no qualms doing LA yesterday. Sure, I didn't really know how to do most of the questions, and besides, I'm not particularly outstanding at LA nor in any other subject, but at least I liked doing it. See the difference! Now I'm researching on how to do a Chemistry assignment and putting off Physics for as long as I can.

What's the point of mugging for something you hate? I mean, like, will I observe for white precipitate when mixing aqueous copper (II) chloride with some other substance in future while doing the dishes or something? All the brainy scientists can do it for all they like. I just want to bolt.

Wonder how anyone would actually bother going for post-grad studies? If I get into the U next time (hopefully), I'll be out the first instant I can graduate.

2010-03-23T22:07:00.004+08:00

My haircut is screwed the back is thick but the bangs are short I gained 2kg More pimples on forehead (!) Tired from watching squash today wish we wouldn't always get thrashed but still I love NYSQ very much as well as the new jersey and first ever tennis skirt Struggling to figure out Math, Physics and Chemistry simultaneously Finished reading Who's That Girl by Alexandra Potter, starting on Sara Zarr's Once Was Lost soon Hopes to reconnect tomorrow while dissecting fish Why can't the weekends come earlier?

beauty

2010-03-19T12:39:00.008+08:00

"The only girls who think beauty isn't

everything are those who

have beauty themselves."

Food for thought, hm?

2010-03-13T17:11:00.003+08:00

OBS people are back! :D Yay hahah. Welcome back to (mainland) Singapore everyone, I've missed you (:

I actually enjoyed the week, didn't study but yeah whatever. Below is pretty much what I did in a week -_- Most of them spent with my dearies Yinghui and Sandra, lovely bonding time hahah! You can go see photos on Facebook(uploaded by them), let the pictures do the talking.

1. Island Creamery!
2. Traffic Light Cake baking!
2. Absence from school for once (super guilty but oh so thrilling!)
3. Watched Day After Tomorrow in the library ~
4. Played badminton and scraped knee ):
5. Read more than 10 novels by Nora Roberts (nearly died but it would have been a happy death)

5. Introduced to You're Beautiful and got hooked, unfortunately.

You're Beautiful is, a bit too cutesy on the female lead's part (yeah your eyes are big and your cheeks are cute, so stop it!), slightly exaggerating (why are the evil people so evil and the good people so good?), a little too irritating for words at some parts (argh just shout out what you feel damnit we don't need those intense gazing, romantic hints that the extremely dense heroine doesn't even understand) and a bit too annoying (just because you see something doesn't mean it's true!! put down your bloody pride and confess already!)

BUT THAT'S WHY IT'S SO ADDICTIVE! THAT'S WHY IT'S CALLED A KOREAN DRAMA!

The actors are good-looking, that alone is a lethal weapon, but their characters...omg it's potent. There's Boy #1 who is a darkly handsome devilish bad boy who is cruel and reminds me of Lee Min Ho in Boys Over Flowers, who is intentionally mean to Girl at first but later they fall in love and he starts being all romantic in a darkly sense of course.

Then there's Boy #2, a smiling angel who reminds me of Kim Hyun Joong in BOF who is always there ready to wipe Girl's tears, make her tea and buy her high heels and tell her he's here even if she likes Boy #1 more. Awww...

And thirdly there's a slightly extra Boy #3 who is cute, childish and hilarious who calls his dog Angelina Jolie and broke my heart when he cries singing a children's song for Girl when she rejects him. Sorry, but I don't usually cry at dramas okay. Don't know why that scene in Ep 14 touched me so much!

Pardon my long post, but the story is actually more than just 3 pretty faces. Typical idol drama, yeah, but somehow it's different, comedic and silly while satisfying the romantic heart. If you need any more proof of my insanity, I keep replaying the part in Ep 11 when Boy #1 pulls her in roughly for a short but sexy kiss. Naughty, but can't help it!

2010-03-06T21:56:00.002+08:00

I'm getting obsessed with The Body Shop!

I mean, I've always liked going into shops, ESPECIALLY departmental stores, just to look at the products even if I'm never going to buy them. Like I have this impulse everytime I'm near a John Little or CK store to just go in and look at the various cosmetics, lotions, shampoos, perfumes and whatnot. Sometimes I even go in to look at sanitary pads.

But I never dared to step in those shops where the sales assistants have a heap of neat make-up on, their skin fair and unblemished, and looking at every person who enters the shop like vultures looking at their prey. The Body Shop is one of them.

Today, with the moral support of S, I finally walked in.

From the outside, all you smell is a sweet, luring scent. But inside, it's like a whole new world entirely! It feels like you're in those flower fields they rave about in poems. Even the packaging is so pretty. You just can't help but want to get your hands on every product -_- Sounds insane, I know, but I really feel like trying everything. Especially the body butters. They look so cute!! Even if I'm not going to buy anything, I'm still walking in the next time I pass a Body Shop; even if it's just to smell the air there :)

Crossing my fingers for some vouchers to come my way ~

P.S: My grandmother just went for surgery yesterday on her knee. It was like some drama, so many tubes and that weird beepy machine! But the ward was so cool, like a hotel room, with your own TV, personal toilet, window view and a couch you can sleep on. Need to operate on another knee for her to walk properly though; but she's still recuperating so will prob need more time first. Although it's only her knee, she's like vomitting and stuff because of the chemicals. Get well soon Grams ):

OBS blues

2010-03-04T20:07:00.001+08:00

I'm so frustrated right now.

We would have 4 days to rest before the training sessions, unless we break our leg or something (touch wood), we would have enough energy to train the next week.

For those 2 days, we have to give up 5 days of bonding time with our class -_-

Why can't she be more understanding?

But thankfully, my batchies are there. If they weren't I would opt out of the course entirely.

2010-02-27T15:23:00.003+08:00

I'm so annoyed at a b_t_h right now!

You know, when you forget to bring/do something, it means it slipped your mind right? You don't intentionally lose your wallet, lose your bottle, forget to switch off the fans, forget to take the clothes, bring in the shoes or whatnot, do you? How does that benefit you one bit! IT WAS UNINTENTIONAL, that's why it's called "forget" what ._.?

She just keeps blaming me for trivial matters and picking on me just because she can. Because she's an elder and I can't yell at her without being labelled disrespectful, ungrateful, rude, yada yada. She's so OCD and OTT I just feel so suffocated living under the same roof as her. Everyone says old people are like this, but surely there's a limit to stupidity?

She forgets stuff too, and once she nearly burnt the whole house down-yet I just quietly corrected her mistake without taunting her or making snide remarks. I didn't even tell M & D so she won't lose face.

The one responsible for single-handedly

raising us and running

the household and doing all the hard work-

WHAT POOP IS THAT!!

She's the one who's being burdensome and a liability right now, yet her attitude is as disgusting as the cockroach you find in your toilet! Everyone has to do things for her but she isn't grateful at all-instead she just takes everything for granted. Am I obliged to abide by every command she dispenses as if I am her maid? Hell, I'm not even paid leh!

And just because her precious grandson/son has to move their butt, she gets pissed at ME. Like, what did I do? They're getting some exercise (finally!), isn't that good? Instead of sitting there like some emperor who is fanned while being fed grapes! -_-

What, is it a crime that I'm in a better school than him? Why is it so important that the male has to do better than the female? HOW SEXIST IS THAT! If he went to HCI or RI I bet she would parade around in a rainbow-colored bikini and chicken feathers in her hair lah. Now she's asking him to work harder so he can get to university and she'll get him a car and a laptop or something.

Next time he wants a bungalow,

you'll get it for him too is it!

Reminds me of that time we were in primary school and she gave him a hundred bucks for passing his exam or something.

This is probably going to sound childish but now I'm even more resolved to work hard and earn more money in future so I can kick her ass!! :(

2010-02-23T20:21:00.000+08:00

Compared to others, I don't have much workload.

I am not part of Council, any special programs like HSSRP or OM or whatnot, no third language, no HMP/AEP, and not even in the most stressful tripsci class! The only activity I have is CCA, and no matter how tiring training is to me, it's actually considered light compared to other sports CCA.

And yet, I still feel like I'm sinking underneath homework. It's not that there's alot of stuff to do, yes there is actually, but everyone's coping so why should I the sole exception? And so far, I sleep before midnight from Mon-Thurs.

The thing is, I have no idea how to do any of the assignments.

Maybe because everyone else works hard to finish their assignment, worksheets and revision, and I'm not hardworking at all so I end up just doing a slipshod job. But even if I ransacked my brain, checked the textbook and notes, searched the Internet or try to crap something, I never seem to be able to complete anything all by myself. It's so demoralizing that I think, why others can find answers but I can't? What is it that I'm doing wrong?

If possible, I wouldn't want to copy anything. It's so much easier but the guilt and stupidity that comes with it just isn't worth the while. I always ask friends for explanations, but I know they're busy with their own stuff and some people are reluctant to spend time explaining over msn because it's troublesome. I don't want to bother them or make every convo a work-related one, but how else am I going to understand anything?

Especially for Math, Chemistry and Physics, there's alot of self-revision. Even Biology, which I used to be fairly confident about, has become so complicated! I really feel like I'm so stupid and misplaced in NY. :S

Therefore I'm going to make a resolution today to finish all my homework before using the computer. Even if it kills me, I have to finish everything because I have to go online everyday. Maybe this pressure will actually force me to crap something of substance?

2010-02-18T17:08:00.001+08:00

CNY was half good half bad.

Plus points are:

- Food, of course, I've been gorging myself with pineapple tarts, kueh bangkit(?), those small popiah-like rolls and love letters! We have like a million oranges at home now, my mom's forcing me to eat though I really hate Chinese oranges. Normal oranges are okay. But whatever.

- Angpow! I'm not sure this counts because I don't technically spend the money, but when you're getting money, who cares?

- Wearing new clothes: I love my new shoes (:

Minus points:

I hate CNY because of bai nian. I know it's supposed to be very festive and stuff, but I really feel super awkward with relatives! It's not that they're not nice, it's just that I don't know how to greet them, what to say and what to do. It was okay visiting my mom's family and a little boring at the paternal side, but when my aunts and their families came to our house I thought I was going to pass out.

WHAT ON EARTH DO YOU SAY TO YOUR COUSINS?

We used to be freaking close and sit in the room talking and writing notes all day when we were younger, but now I'd rather have the company of my laptop than actually speak to them. Because, mainly, I have no idea what to say. And if I do say something, I always say the wrong thing. And they came in the morning! When I just woke up and still felt groggy and disoriented.

Thank goodness I had the honorable company of the great Peiling who entertained me on MSN so I wouldn't feel too awkward! :D LOL. Next time you're bored of relatives, just call Peiling and she'll provide you with her awesome services! (joking, she's not that pro ^^)

And of course, the relatives always make sure to comment on my appearance. Hair, skin, weight, whatever. Maybe next time I should diet for a week before any relative drops by. D;

Okay, enough crapping here. Happy mugging! :S

2010-02-11T20:19:00.002+08:00

one more day to Valentines' Day!

and Chinese New Year after that!

I'm going to go insane eating and eating for the next few days haha :D

This year's CNY and V'Day has no festive spirit at all :/ Is it because we're all too boggled down by homework, projects, assignments and stuff that we no longer have the enthusiasm to celebrate?

Or will we suddenly burst into cheer tomorrow? :O

For me, there are so many things going through my head that I don't have the energy to even feel excited for the CNY holidays. My brain's memory space is slowly dwindling too. I think my OCD is developing at an alarming rate, very soon I'll be paranoid and start panicking in my sleep! -_-

Anyway, I feel quite sad I won't be going back to NHPS tomorrow...for the past 2 years I've been going back for most of the celebrations so it does feel kinda queer. But I'll definitely go back on Teachers' Day, provided there's no CCA or other urgent events happening. :(

Oh, and you know, at Sec 3 the number of people not eating during break is much higher than in Sec 1 and 2. Almost every girl in my class wants to go on a diet/eat less-either to save money or to save calories. You might say, "That's absurd!" But unfortunately this probably isn't common only in my class, but across the entire school as well! Very scary right D:

I can totally understand if you're bigger-sized and losing weight will help your self-esteem and health or whtv because I know I should shed some kilos myself. But I feel like spanking those people who are already skinny or at least at a healthy weight who want to diet and lose more weight!

No offense to anyone, but yes, this is one of the things that pisses me off the most. Why can't you like be appreciative of what you've already got instead of hankering after something that isn't even good for you?

If you are 80-90% then obviously you're at an ideal range, diet for what? In fact at 80% you should be eating more already. My blood boils at the thought of those skinny freaks who whine, "OMG I gained weight leh! So fat, I need to go on a diet!"

What-ever!

Nanyang should get the Dove people here ASAP.

why am i so stupid

2010-02-05T23:52:00.000+08:00

Went Queensway with Yinghui, Sandra and Jieyi to look for tennis skirt! The katong laksa there is awesome man, and the iced milk tea is also fab compared to sweettalk (: I'm determined to go back there again.

Tomorrow baking with Serene, hopefully we'll be successful! (:

2010-01-31T21:33:00.003+08:00

ESIP chopped, garnished, boiled and deepfried my brain cells yesterday. I mean, if you're testing our speed, at least make the questions easy! And vice versa. Anyway I just randomly shaded for those qns I left blank (which is ALOT) because there's a 20% chance of getting it right -_-"

Here is a summary of what happened today:

Morning: Eat. Read novels. Stone. And eat somemore.

Afternoon: Read more novels. Eat. Stare at Math.

Night: Eat. Stone. Random googling. Stone. Eat.

I really think I'm going bonkers. Its like, less homework, but the homework is so difficult? And I promised myself to study Math and Sciences but I've practically stoned the whole time away. I think I've visited Youtube, Allkpop, Gmail and Google 100 times today alone.

Or even more, maybe.

You know the feeling you get on Mondays and Tuesdays, like the week's going to stretch torturously long and you just feel like sighing?

Wednesday: OK, only Thursday and then it's Friday, hang on there!

On Thursday: It's Friday tomorrow!! One more, just one more.

On Friday: TGIF. (thank God it's Friday).

On Saturday: Should I start on homework? Nah, screw it. I get to sleep late AND wake up late!

On Sunday: Crap I haven't done any homework. It's bloody Monday again tomorrow D: (excruciating heart pain)

And so the cycle repeats.

2010-01-29T20:59:00.000+08:00

My ribcage hurts quite frequently these days, it's a sharp acute pain that generally lasts for a few minutes and I can't move because it's painful. Is it my posture or what?

Anyway, I'm really concerned for my future. If I want to be a pediatrician I'll have to work doubly hard for Science D: But my niche isn't even in Science, or do I have a niche at all? -_- I also don't know why I'm in TripSci now.

Can't wait for Sunday-Family Outing, Hi My Sweetheart and Down With Love!!!

if you forget me-pablo neruda

2010-01-28T18:26:00.001+08:00

I want you to know
one thing.

You know how this is:
if I look
at the crystal moon, at the red branch
of the slow autumn at my window,
if I touch
near the fire
the impalpable ash
or the wrinkled body of the log,
everything carries me to you,
as if everything that exists,
aromas, light, metals,
were little boats
that sail
toward those isles of yours that wait for me.

Well, now,
if little by little you stop loving me
I shall stop loving you little by little.
If suddenly
you forget me
do not look for me,
for I shall already have forgotten you.

If you think it long and mad,
the wind of banners
that passes through my life,
and you decide
to leave me at the shore
of the heart where I have roots,
remember
that on that day,
at that hour,
I shall lift my arms
and my roots will set off
to seek another land.

2010-01-26T20:43:00.000+08:00

Really tired now but I still haven't done math assignment and the ~~stupid~~ IH ws which I probably won't bother to do anymore. CCA was ookay though, Coach treated us to fruit juice HAHAHA! :D I may complain alot about trainings but I reallyreally love NYSQ, esp. batch'11 :D Crossing my fingers that we'll have a full batch outing together, all 8 of us! (:

Oh and I don't understand why some people don't like being seen as muggers. Not just one person, but alot of people I know leh! I guess they want to appear cooler or something, but how is being sloppy, irresponsible, lazy and slack "cool"?

How does mugging make you lose face? When I see someone with earphones and concentrating on notes, I always feel admiration and respect because she is working hard to gain more knowledge and has a good attitude towards learning. I also have the impression that she is a person I can trust during projects to dutifully complete her job well without needing me to go after her with a broom.

The above is just from a mugger-wannabe's perspective though. I'm proud to say that I'm trying to be a full-time mugger (:

i hope

2010-01-23T21:57:00.001+08:00

Yesterday was really suay leh haha ): Forgot to bring my wallet, then accidentally scalded my fingers when making cup noodles in sch D: I spent the whole SIL lesson trying not to cry cos I couldn't bring cold water into the audi and the pain was so bad...now there's this red patch on my right hand. Ow.

Then I forgot to bring home my physics assignment, and there's CCA run on every Monday now! D:

I realise I've been sleeping through class or stoning instead of paying attention and taking notes like hardworking muggers do. I feel really bad cos I think the teachers do notice, that's why they keep bloody picking on me, but I just can't help myself!

So far I've been "reprimanded" by MdmPhua for allegedly shaking my bum during national anthem (whatthehell?), called out during class to be embarrassed by PaulTan, and Jijianli always gives me sudden questions which makes me give random answers because my mouth works faster than my brain. And they all pick on me for doodling during class when I'm actually drawing to keep myself awake and MY MIND IS PROCESSING WHAT THEY ARE SAYING!

So because I doodle it means I'm not listening to a word they say meh! :S

You know according to Wikipedia, a study published by Applied Cognitive Psychology showed that doodling helps a person's memory significantly. Also, many famous people also doodle, hence showing that doodling is an important activity that mankind needs in order to survive!! Hahahah!!!

"In published compilations of their materials, numerous historical figures have left behind doodles. Erasmus drew comical faces in the margins of his manuscripts and John Keats drew flowers in his medical note-books during lectures. Ralph Waldo Emerson, as a student at Harvard, decorated his composition books with somber, classical doodles, such as ornamental scrolls. In one place, he sketched a man whose feet have been bitten off by a great fish swimming nearby and added the caption, “My feet are gone. I am a fish. Yes, I am a fish!” In many other situations he commented that they helped with compositions. Stanislaw Ulam the mathematician is another example: he discovered the Ulam spiral while doodling during an academic conference."

Next time when I become famous, you all better come back here and read this post. I will accredit my success to the ~~random~~ scribbles in my notebook! Then if you were lucky enough to have my scribbling in your notebook, GO AUCTION IT OFF! YOU'LL BE RICH.

And teachers will regret ever scolding me for daydreaming. Hah.

oh is that so

2010-01-20T21:58:00.000+08:00

My mom was writing this powerpoint for her students and she inserted 2 pictures, one of Obama and one of some random construction worker. She was like, "Which person do you want to be? A success or a failure?"
My first thought was, so because you are earning a lower salary and have no education credentials, you are automatically a failure in life?

What kind of dumb shit idea is that?!

We're all mugging for our lives to graduate, get a good degree, find a good job and live a good life. So? Then what?

I hope even if I score badly for the next quiz I'll still live well.

2010-01-14T16:57:00.001+08:00

I'm ashamed but I can't bring myself to ask if I can have a little bit of your time and attention. When you asked why I looked so gloomy I badly wanted to tell you everything so you could magically offer me a solution to everything, but like always the words never formed. ):

It's merely the beginning of 2010 but I feel like I'm getting the full force of the realisation that it's time to get out of my little world and start becoming a better person, whether is it for myself or the people around me. I'm still so immature in my thinking I can't believe the thoughts that run through my mind sometimes -_-

I will lighten up, promise!

i hate this

2010-01-13T20:31:00.000+08:00

Only January and so much has happened wth :S Not as depressed as yesterday thankfully, I know there are more important things to focus on than such trivial matters but I just can't help myself.

Damn it I want to go OBS march!

Why can't I have my cake and eat it too D:

follow me on twitter

2010-01-10T00:22:00.001+08:00

I was telling Serene how I really like answering people's questions on Yahoo, and sometimes when I post a question people actually answer me as well! (screams) It's super cool k, most of them are really nice people and they give good advice, I know it may not make much sense but in a way I feel like okay, they get what I'm saying and they're not even from Singapore! I once received an answer from an Indian girl who's the same age (: And when I get voted Best Answer I feel so happy, THEY ACTUALLY TAKE MY ADVICE!
Well of course, my words are very precious golden nuggets you know. :D

I get excited even seeing Yahoo: You received a new comment! in my inbox. I positively cross my fingers waiting for the page to load. Is this what you call a cheap thrill?

Heck, do it anyway. Sec 3 is mad depressing. I reckon I need something to look forward to even if it's something so silly and insignificant.

On a side note: Why do we need to memorise a Chinese poem about how pure a lotus flower is? Its not like we're going to recite poetry while looking at flowers. Silent appreciation, yknow?

scared

2010-01-07T18:46:00.002+08:00

I'm sorry but I can't hold out for another day -_-

Sec 3 is so draining. The lessons are cheem and I have a really hard time with Maths. If I didn't have Serene's help I would be totally lost, not only in Math but also physics. I really think I'm too dependent on other people, now that I dont know anyone well in the class other than the 210ers, I'm so worried!

One thing about sec 3 teachers is that they speak better, faster and they expect you to be mature and catch up quickly. Everything seems more serious than in lower sec although it's only the first few days. Although I try hard to pay attention in class, I never seem to catch any deadlines, any instructions, anything. Now that I'm no longer in 210, I miss the class so much; I think I took the comfort and laughter all for granted...

And cca. I don't want to miss OBS march, or have training almost everyday, but lately I don't mind going to sch team anymore. I don't want it passionately but I don't mind it. It all boils down to next week's selections I guess? ._. This thing has been lingering in my mind for so long, I don't know what to do D:

I didn't know I would feel so awkward and anxious...I sort of hoped I would miraculously get through it easily. Tomorrow we're going to change seating arrangement; the prospect is horrifyingly horrifying. What if my tablemate gets annoyed with my questions and we dont get along or whatever?! I wish I could look forward to making new friends and actually talk to them naturally instead of feeling nervous and tongue-tied :S

Will update soon. Argh.

farewell!

2010-01-03T22:07:00.000+08:00

To get myself used to school life, I'll try not to come online, blog, watch videos or check up on Kpop for the next week!

its only 5 days, ill bear with it.

See you (:

2010-01-02T10:07:00.000+08:00

The last few days of the holiday was spent lazily with nothing else to do but watch videos on Youtube. My mom keeps asking me to start reading up on next year's stuff but I haven't bought my poetry book, don't know which Science topics to read and have no desire to start on Math.

At least I more or less finished my Math concept map -_-

I'm scared that next year I can't adjust back to a mugging lifestyle and slack instead of studying, which will be fatal haha. I haven't found a NYAA project to do too. The new year seems daunting.

I'll miss stalking korean idols.

weekly update

2009-12-29T11:54:00.001+08:00

1. I still have not done math concept map.

Self-explanatory.

2. I am addicted to Family Outing.

It's a Korean variety show that's super hilarious, and I've been watching some of the episodes these few days. Is this what you call lack of self-discipline? It's the holidays but school is starting soon D:

3. Avatar movie!

Went out with family to watch Avatar yesterday in 3D! My mom thought it was Lot 1 so we went there first, we were already getting late, then my dad called and said it's West Mall, so we practically flew there -_- Thank goodness we didn't choose to go somewhere further like Orchard. Anyway the movie was really really good, except the spectacles kept falling off my nose and my eyes felt really tired. Must watch!

4. Boy carrying his girlfriend's bag?

This is random, but do you think it's acceptable for a guy to carry his girlfriend's handbag? If they're teenagers and the boy looks so immature and they're the same height? No right! Looks so gay! If they're an older couple and the male is well-built etc. then I find it manly but-

it looks so sissy on someone who's the same height as his girlfriend!

Makes me wonder who's the girl you know!

I saw a perfect case study yesterday and I nearly tapped them on the shoulder to say, When you can actually take care of your gf using your own money and ability then you try act macho lah haiyo -_-

5. Things to do

- Write New Year Resolutions
- Do CCA Journal
- Math Concept Map
- Read Poetry book
(I'm going to pretend there is no such thing as Science)

2009-12-22T20:00:00.001+08:00

CCA today! I played rather badly because I was ~~mentally~~ tired, sorry Yinghui :/ No fitness test cos Ms Goh wasn't around, hopefully she was just trying to force us to selftrain and not serious about it :S

Oh and btw...

Glutinous Rice Balls!

They're not cooked yet, it's really fun rolling the flour into balls hehheh! (:

2009-12-19T14:30:00.000+08:00

Went to buy school books just now, I bought the geography book and apparently according to Serene, IH doesn't need textbooks! D: Thankfully Xiaoyi hasn't gotten hers yet, so I can sell her mine haha. I better sms her ~~everyday~~ to remind her not to buy!

Gotta do Math concept map, read science books and do the stupid Chinese book my mom got.

2009-12-16T22:39:00.000+08:00

Had training with Yinghuiyo yesterday!! :D She got me birthday presents (my favourite food-egg tart & takoyaki plus a "personalised" box), so sweet right? I was so touched haha, because I really didn't expect anything (: Didn't get to do much PT but at least practised a bit hehheh.

Serene and I went to Peiling's new house today, its really cool but looks more like a shopping centre than a house xD Checked out the swimming pool and playground, played billiard and table tennis, then went up to her house and played with the sports equipment; I like the Osim horse-riding thinggy and the trampoline! Watched some videos and then played guitar hero-omg it's super fun but also ridiculously difficult. Had a good time camwhoring, for once we actually did behave like ~~self-obsessed zilianing~~ bimbos -_-

I'm going to Malaysia AGAIN in the weekend, tiring week but I still haven't done Math homework congratulations ): What to do?

tired

2009-12-13T23:21:00.001+08:00

Went to Malaysia today, turns out my passport photo doesn't look like me anymore!

S:

They said HAVE to change and even wrote down on the passport "final". For both my brother and me! The requirements for the photos are so ultra complicated, and it's so unflattering to look straight in the camera, plus you have to make sure your hair and eyes are ok. ): What's worse is, there are 5 MORE YEARS in my passport!!!!!!! D: What a waste!

Anyway, I saw this pair of really cute sneakers there, and when you convert the price to SGD, it's alot cheaper than what you get in Singapore! I'm so going to get it next weekend-didn't have time to try it because we were in a rush for my cousin's wedding ;D Got this top that costs like $10-and the best thing is, it doesn't look cheap (HAHA) Such is the wonder of shopping in Malaysia.

I really, really hate weddings, dinners, or in fact any occasion with relatives. It's supposed to be an happy occasion when you reunite with your extended family, but it's so awkward for me because I have no idea how to behave. Sometimes they look at you with that appraising stare and I feel like they're going to start prodding me like I'm some fish at the market. My cousins are really nice though it got a bit quiet and uncomfortable at times (:

And do you know how many animals died for a wedding dinner? Fishes, sharks, prawns, chickens, pigs and crabs (i can't think of anymore), times the number of tables, times the number of dinners...horror of horrors. It makes me feel like going vegetarian.

/5kg in half a month-possible?

ewww

2009-12-06T22:00:00.000+08:00

Why did you appear when I'm taking my bath, why did you drop your jellylike tail at the shower, why did you stare at me with your bloody black eyes on your disgustingly transparent body? And when you were finally escorted to the rubbish bin your friend who is bigger and smarter suddenly appears on the wall outside my room, when I looked the second time your friend disappeared!!!

I don't know if I'll wake up in the morning to find myself face-to-face with a freaking lizard.

Dontknowhowmany of my brain cells were killed just now. I'll kick the bucket early at this rate insects keep appearing at random places! :S

P.S: I smell of smoke because of the joss sticks this morning.
P.P.S: I'm going to do lots of shopping in Malaysia the next time I go in, converting RM to S$ is so incredibly fun. And satisfying as well.
P.P.P.S: Weddings are boring.

wasting away day by day

2009-12-04T10:57:00.000+08:00

I'm still not at the stage whereby I want to go back to school, but I feel so bored at home. I mean, it's nice pigging around reading books, watching videos, watching television and going to the gym in a futile attempt to lose weight, but then at night I think to myself, what else? I don't want to start mugging nor do I want to have CCA (irresponsible of me haha but I'm quite glad there's only 3 trngs this hols) but well...you get what I mean.

If you know any good books or movies or dramas or variety shows, please share! (:

The new Channel 8 drama is a ripoff from Little Nyonya! Sure, the setting and story is different, but the people are all the same. Is Singapore's celebrity pool that small? It's Jeanette Aw with the same character, DYT as her ill-fated lover and a story full of heartache. I think the show's pretty addictive though; the angst viewers feel makes them keep watching everyday. My family likes it but I hate it so I always listen to music with my earpiece when the TV is on. (cough)

Because I have nothing better to do I shall go and sweep the floor. Can't wait for Monday, watching movie with Xueen & Yijin (:

2009-12-01T09:45:00.000+08:00

This is what keeps me from blogging. :D

Should I volunteer at the library or at Touch Community? The library is more convenient, but harder to apply for, while TCS requires more commitment and travel, but is easier to join.

Not to mention, I have no idea how to fill in the application form.

It's the first day of December, I've actually spent a month pigging around :O Four weeks more to lose it all.

2009-11-26T18:42:00.002+08:00

Hello.

This holiday is quite weird. I finally learnt to cook noodle soup (got veggie, fishballs, minced meat, eggs and prawns!) and iron some clothes although they don't really look any straighter when I'm done -_-

And I feel quite stupid because I only learnt about Jaebeom/2PM's situation recently. I've been watching all their episodes on Idol Show and Hot Blood, and my mom is curious why I'm always smiling so widely. They're really funny and cool, keeping my fingers crossed that they'll rise to the top once more with Jay...fighting!

To those worried about class allocations: Chin up, we're all behind you. <3

2009-11-23T16:13:00.000+08:00

I suddenly feel really afraid. What if I don't have close friends next year, what if I'm not part of a clique anymore? What if I'm not popular in my new class? What kind of people will my new classmates and friends be?

So insecure and nervous ): I want to be a better person next year.

Wherever You will Go-The Calling

2009-11-22T18:53:00.000+08:00

so lately
been wondering
who will be there to take my place
when im gone
you'll need love
to light the shadows on your face

long post

2009-11-20T12:01:00.003+08:00

Thank you to those who offered me tips on my, um, hair condition :D I will try them later on LOL!

Now I'd like to say how awesome CHUA HSIEH EN is, because she's a regular tagger and blogger, her name is always there on MSN, she replies your sms (I'm eternally grateful), she encourages you to be more optimistic and open-minded, she shares your opinions and she loves twilight too! Because she's so awesome, the great Me has to dedicate a paragraph for her :D If you'd like to add about her awesomeness here, please feel free to tag HAHA!

Okay announcement over. It's random, I know.

It turns out I will be going to Malaysia 4 times, and I'm staying overnight for 3 of them.

It's not that I'm adverse to staying at my cousins' place, they're very nice and its comfortable there (: But I have no idea how I am supposed to behave, and what I'm supposed to say to my relatives. My cousins and I are so different! I just dont know how to interact and communicate with them, so it's rather awkward...

I'm such a noob -_-

Anyway, I'm in Class 305 with Serene, Denise and Yingxuan :D I'm so glad I didn't end up with only some ulu person :/ On the other hand, it's horribly amusing how certain people always seem to have this common destiny even if they would rather be on separate ends of the world.

Guess Fate loves to play with people!

To anyone unhappy about your class/subject allocation, here's a dose of my annoying optimism (doesnt come often yknow! im very pessimistic.)

1. If you are in an ulu class

You can bitch and go crazy if you like, and nobody will think, You used to be so nice! You can try to be the class clown and no one will go, You're trying too hard to fit in.

And you can free yourself from the chains of previous feuds, hence preventing further bad karma!

2. You don't have your close friends with you

Maybe the longer you spend with someone, the more you will find that they have flaws too! It's good to say goodbye remembering your friend as a wonderful person, than to remember her as the-one-I-spent-every-day-with-and-grew-sick-of-cos-she-became-a-bitch-in-sec-3.

3. You are with people you are not close with

With hate comes love :D (sorry thats the best I can think of) Who knows, later you'll become bosom buddies with those friends whom you didnt think possible because of status quo previously. Now that you're not bounded by cliques...

4. You are with people you dislike (immensely)

Honestly? I would scream.

obligatory update

2009-11-18T20:24:00.001+08:00

1. Malacca

It was fun and a great experience. But ended way too fast, one more day would be good! No mood/energy/memory to blog here, you want pictures, go Serene/Puilin/Peiling's facebook to view. Sorry to disappoint, but I really don't have the motivation to write about it.

There, the poor deprived me ate chendol for the first time (:

2. Subject Allocation

CC4 Triple Science (: Honestly, I didn't expect to get CC4 because my Chinese, while being very unstable and lousy, wasn't what you'd call bad. But admittedly I deproved and screwed up EOYS, so well, looks like I have to work harder T.T Towards triplescience, it was kind of expected, so I don't feel anything...(: I just wonder if I would be feeling anything if I had gone to History/Alit.

3. Hair

I have no idea why, I wash my hair everyday (with shampoo and sometimes conditioner) but my hair itches! I try to wash it even cleaner but my scalp just doesn't stop itching. :S Could it be something wrong?!

4. Empty holiday

Other than a wedding dinner, a weekend @ Malaysia with family and self-training, I have nothing else to do._. CCA is only 3 days in december, which suits me (HAHA!) Should I study Math or something?

2009-11-10T19:49:00.003+08:00

malacca trip!!!

Nichkhun, T.O.P, Kim Hyun Joong

2009-11-09T22:02:00.000+08:00

1. Mouth ulcer hurts like crap everytime I move my cheek area.
2. Heavy, 24/7 discomfort. (It'd better get lighter by Malacca)
3. Eat eat eat, too tired to run.
4. Feel like reading/watching sth good, but nothing.
5. Love Like This by SS501 replaying in my head over a 100x.
6. Going gaga over Korean hotties, I know I'm slow.
7. Pissed @ how she always wants to intrude.
8. Decide after Malacca whether to lock blog. (dont want to but I don't want my parents to be reading this)

love like this-SS501!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2009-11-08T16:33:00.003+08:00

Sorted out stuff I'm going to bring for Malacca, and unfortunately I dont know if my bunny/teddy can fit inside my bag :S My bloody mary came today, very 倒霉 right! ): I think I can open a pad shop in Malacca now haha!

Anyway, posted on class blog, it's quite long by my own standards, not very touching, but still a little piece of my heart (:

I LOVE YOU GIRLS TO BITS!

(in the non-romantic way of course)

ANYBODY who has One Night Stand by Julie Cohen, I'll love you for life if you tell me where to download it/loan it to me!

//What. the. hell? My brother took my lip balm and used it, like EWW! My favourite-and only-lip balm is gone!

I need a locker at home. Now.

sorry for this irrelevant and redundant update, my fingers were itching

2009-11-06T20:09:00.001+08:00

I LOVE WONKA NERDS!!

I felt very cheated because after a million years of shaking, one pathetic purple nerd fell out from the pink side.

HOW CAN PURPLE COME OUT OF PINK?!

WHAT LOGIC IS THIS.

Spamming Wonka Nerds is fun because they're so tiny and ABUNDANT. But when they start rolling onto the floor then die lah.

Anyway, I LOVE TWOTEN TO BITS (: Watched the class montages by Yijin & Daphne; they were so touching and sweet! T.T Had phototaking sessions with everyone, smile until very numb haha!

I can't access my LJ so you guys have to wait for my ohsotouching update muaahhahaha. The more I write, the sillier I feel, because how on earth do you use words to describe moments that are just so emotional, and people who mean so much to you? But because I promised, I'll try -_-"

Not much CCA this holiday, but lots of self-training for the physical test in December. :S Good lah, will help me lose more weight since I'm so gravitationally challenged. (Hengheng is going away, PattyGoh is coming to stay, hurray! Welcome to the era of exercise journals and pep talks, not nagging and fussing! :D)

Malacca trip in 4 days!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
(even the wonka nerds are vibrating with happiness! though i think its because my phone is ringing._.)

i hate

2009-11-04T19:55:00.001+08:00

being sunburnt.

authority and rules.

having to explain everything when I'm not even in the wrong.

people who keep nagging and nagging when nothing can be done.

(let me add something else: gutless bitching behind a screen.)

is it that important to check my stuff including my sms?

2009-11-02T18:05:00.001+08:00

Results are not bad (: Better than what I expected anyway hahah! I know some people mugged like shit but only got average, but some slackers touched their books last minute and had super low MSGs. It's sad. My grades aren't exceptional, because I didn't concentrate well enough while studying. (so I'm to blame ahem).But I feel so sorry for those who did work very hard but didn't get what they want, while I feel like feeding chicken poop to those who were opposite.

Wanted to pwn trng today because I thought I was the only sec 2 going, then Tracy came along and so I didn't. Guess I'm just not cut out for pwning -_-" But in a way CCA is good when you've pissed someone off at home and you don't want to come back so early to stare at that person's face.

I feel very empty without 意难忘 though I won't be able to watch it even if it's still airing.

the mahjong room

2009-10-29T20:19:00.006+08:00

My birthday was great. Awesome, actually (: I just felt so overwhelmed by all the good wishes raining down on me, and the scores for LA, History and Science were a pleasant surprise. A really, really big thank you to everyone who has wished me personally, on Facebook, via sms, MSN, and the presents as well!

thanks a billion! (though its like 2 days late)

Oh, and I failed Chinese. :S On a happier note, I did pass Math and did surprisingly okayish for Geog, so, guess I do have alot to be thankful for!

Drama Fest was a totally new experience, sadly 210 didn't get into the finals, but seriously, I think "its the experience that counts" is applicable here. The acting was great, props went well, lights and sounds no major blip right? Also had a fun time watching the other plays. :D

The year's coming to an end, will try to make a meaningful (ahem) and touching (cough) message here soon (:

would it help if i said i wanted a star?

2009-10-24T12:18:00.002+08:00

Frankly, I don't feel bored. I mean, it feels uncomfortable and weird that there's no last-minute mugging to be done, I can just slack the whole day without getting guilty. But while there's a limit to how much slacking you can do, I'm liking it pigging out at home. I'm going to die even worse during training on Monday, but I've decided to just grow sluggish and compensate with hell during CCA.

Finished reading a few books these few days: Bloom by Elizabeth Scott is nice! Draggy (and we already know the ending) but nonetheless a good read haha.The Book Of Luke by Jenny O'Connell is just another teen novel, but enjoyable though. On the other hand, Going Too Far by Jennifer Echols is a story that I can't really relate to because the characters are so different from Asians; an American high school story.

Anyway, sorry for the lack of photos. Blogger loads too slow! :)

sense of emptiness

2009-10-22T21:04:00.000+08:00

School for drama, then movies with Ice Lollies, Xueen and Yijin (: We wanted to watch My Sister's Keeper initially but the next timing was 5pm so we watched Fame instead, which was earlier! It was a good movie, if you like dancing, singing, romance-the Step Up/High School Musical stuff, you should like it. Still, wished we got to watch MSK...loved the book!

We saw tons of PDA today, especially the angmoh teenagers haha. I think it's all right to show your affection towards the other person, but to openly cuddle and kiss not only makes passersby feel uncomfortable, but also gives people the impression that you're like, trashy? Sheesh.

5 more days, yet I still don't feel very excited. Thanks Luoyi, Peishan and Xiaoyi for the necklace, so sweet of you girls! (:

2009-10-21T20:25:00.003+08:00

Cant remember if I have uploaded this before..

EOYS ARE OVER! But I don't feel any sense of overwhelming joy actually. Maybe because I didn't mug like super hard and I flunked everything, so I am not in a celebratory mood :/

But had a very very very fun time playing Mahjong-Bluff with the Ice Lollies (: As you can probably tell from its name, it's a fusion between mahjong and bluff/cheat, created by us!

Blogger is frustrating-want photos, go Puilin's blog (:

And then today I realised I have way too many hairties at home...black, blue, yellow, red, peach, green, purple, pink, white and brown, everything also have! I love how the same colour can look so different in different shades, I keep buying buying buying until now I have so many and I hope the new ones wont spoil or something since I won't be using them for a long, long time. Does anybody know if hairbands will lose their elasticity over time, even if they havent even been used before (or even opened from their packaging?)

Ok enough rambling I shall go find sth fun to do now. Toodles!

no enthusiasm

2009-10-20T15:37:00.001+08:00

Happy Birthday Elaine! (:
Be happy, dont worry, and believe in yourself!

Geography and Science was horrendously bad. Halfway through Geog, I actually thought to myself, I am never going to take another test in Nanyang again, I hate the stress and I'd rather be a road sweeper -_-

Which scared me quite a bit because I already filled in the subject-combo form!

But the panic which overwhelmed me when I realised I didn't understand half of the MCQ and almost the entire paper for Physics was terrifying. It was one of the rare times when my mind abandoned me for somewhere better ):

I should not be posting again

2009-10-16T18:18:00.004+08:00

Want to 奔月 also don't ask me, how can like that ):

Fri, Oct 16, 2009
Reuters

DENVER, COLORADO - A helium balloon that flew out of control over Colorado landed on Thursday but a 6-year-old boy who had been thought to be on board was not in the craft, local media said.
It was not known where the boy was.

The boy, who was not identified, was reported to have climbed into the small homemade craft at his family's home before it floated away and across the Colorado skies at up to 7,000 feet (2,100 metres).
Television images showed the silver ballon, resembling a flying saucer and about 20 feet (six metres) across, floating above Colorado before it landed, as authorities scrambled to find a way to bring it down safely.
A Larimer County Sheriff's spokeswoman described the craft as 'a homemade helium balloon made to look like a UFO.' She said the boy climbed into the balloon at his family's home in Fort Collins.
The craft then apparently broke away from a pair of tethers holding it to the ground and floated away.
Aviation experts said that the boy could survive the flight but would be cold and possibly disoriented at high altitudes.

The little runaway was later found unscathed lah. So good I also want to try!

i will not believe it because its non-scientific

2009-10-16T13:54:00.002+08:00

LA, Chinese, Math Paper 2 and History gone, left with Science, Math Paper 1 and Geography! (:

Math was a big big disappointment, HOW COME TIMED TRIAL ALSO NOT SO HARD ONE! Cheat my feelings ): I didn't know how to do alot of questions (dont tell me wont be so bad, I tell you it has been that bad before)

And, I got quite freaked out by some people during this stressful period ._. Here is a snippet from my convo with A:

A: I'm so dead, I have been slacking for so long!! (can imagine her hyperventilating here)
Me: Me also! How long already?
A: For the last half an hour! 30 minutes leh! I could have been doing something worthy, like mugging! (eyes shining)

Very guagua leh -_- (insert crow flying past head)

Me: Then what subjects you haven't mugged?
A: I mugged everything, but I can't remember anything leh! I'm going to fail T_T

(insert 2 crows flying towards each other above my head, colliding together and dropping birdshit on my face)

Anyway, IT'S FRIDAY! AND FINALLY I CAN DECIDE WHAT TIME I SLEEP AND WAKE UP :D This new power is super 清爽 man. But I think this less-stressed-more-relief also aroused my Bloody Mary (so thats why you refused to come!)

It seems like my newfound power can be applied to real life too! I was holding this super hot bowl of noodles just now and it was going to slip off my fingers but the pro me said, "I WILL NOT DROP THIS @#$%^&*! BOWL HAH!" And I successfully reached my destination ^^ I HAVE THE POWER MAN! BUY THE FELOGY MIRACLE PILL AND YOU'LL HAVE IT TOO! :D

(do not attempt the above at home yet i have yet to research on this newfound Felogy concept.)

Have fun mugging during the weekends if you're a Nanyang girl!

talking about death

2009-10-14T14:19:00.000+08:00

LANGARTS TODAY ): I hate the feeling you get when you could have done better but your brain sot alrdy hence and thereforth you were in extreme panic mode during the exam and sprouted nonsense.

I think I wasted approximately one page on cancelled words which are super paiseh that I hope D.C won't bother to read. ~~I actually wrote detoriorated as dettorated-_-"~~ And I realised I spelt emulate as emaluate so tada language mark prob gone. THE WORST THING? I THINK MY COMPO IS OUT OF POINT BECAUSE IT DOESNT REALLY HAVE "BELIEFS".

Whoa my stomach just growled the same time as the thunder outside.

Next paper is Chinese. I'm looking forward to it so much that my heart is pumping with excitement and anticipation and I KNOW I'm going to do well. If you can't tell that it's sacarsm you probably don't know the standard of my Chinese! :S

Now that I am pleasantly full with beehoon soup, I shall do some stalking first before hugging Buddha's leg. Have fun at EOYS, stay Cool and Calm like a Cucumber, don't be Cockeyed :D

seventh heaven

2009-10-09T15:27:00.002+08:00

EOYS ARE COMING IN LIKE 5 DAYS AND I HAVENT MEMORIZED EVERYTHING!

HOW!?!

I feel so loser. ): Can I 奔月like Chang'er now?
....

And why does Blogger have dictionary?! I don't need to know that I spelt Changer wrongly because I want to write Chang'er and not Changer!

I'm already envisioning what I'm going to do after EOYS! Omg I think I'll be ~~the cow~~ that jumped over the moon once all the papers end :D But I'm going to get back LA, History and Science on my birthday! WHY?! WHY ON MY BIRTHDAY? WHY!!!!! WHAT IF I DID HORRIBLY BADLY?!WILL I REMEMBER THIS BIRTHDAY AS THE WORST BIRTHAY IN MY LIFE?!

Well, at least I'm not getting back Math on 27th October. If I did I will probably poke the teachers till they beg me for mercy and change the dates muahahahahha. (evil laughter)

Fine I hear shouts everywhere. BACK TO MUGGING! (1hour later) GOOD LUCK EVERYBODY! DON'T FAIL ANYTHING, OR YOU'LL BE A KACANG PUTIH!

888th post!

2009-10-08T21:11:00.000+08:00

I had the weirdest dream on Tuesday night like wth? :O

Apparently I was in M4-04 doing drama with this guy, who was incredibly hunky and good-looking (drools). Then we acted some Romeo and Juliet-like thing (he was wearing jeans! and looked like, whoa) AND THEN THE DREAM ENDED! Very qianbian right ):

Oh well. Short and sweet. :D

Now, if only I can remember how he looked like...

the scribble flower

2009-10-06T19:20:00.000+08:00

Okay from today onwards SOLID MEMORIZING, no more wallypally!!

(Goodbye Diner Dash, I shall stop playing you in class T.T)

apologies for the very random and siao post ahead

2009-10-03T18:04:00.006+08:00

I love you so much,
and yet you’re still doing this to me.
Do you know that I want to memorize all your features,
and know you from inside out?
Stop breaking my heart and making my head ache...

HISTORY WHY ARE YOU DOING THIS TO ME!!!!!
难道你不知道我对你的爱和付出吗？

-------------------------------Stay tuned to the next episode---------------------------------------------

Happy Mooncake Festival to you all!
CURRENTLY UNDER SUGAR RUSH HAHAHAHAA,MOONCAKES AND CHOCOLATE’S FAULT,
LOVE MOONCAKE FESTIVAL!!!! LET’S HAVE IT EVERYDAY! WHEEEEEEEEEEEE! HAHAHAHHAA!!

I have this crazy impulse to email the manga people to shut up and let me translate in peace. (!)
*grins like a lunatic at the thought*

My future is shining with chocolates, I shall go fly to the moon now wheeheee! Chang'er seems very happy to see me!! :D

Once again have a very happy Mooncake Festival
and eat more mooncakes!

exfoliating bliss

2009-10-02T20:45:00.002+08:00

Sorry for the rant! After a good night's sleep I decided to just throw all my stupid thoughts into the bin. My horoscope says I should learn to forgive and forget, hence and thereforth I'm going to try and put down all the heavy burdening thoughts I have (:

Anyway, life is quite blessed right now. Because of one thing.

You want to know what it is?

Mooncakes!!

I tell you ah, I don't know why we only eat mooncakes during MidAutumn Festival. So its to commemorate the festival, but who freaking cares?! Mooncakes are good! Especially snowskin! THOSE WHO HAVENT EATEN GREEN TEA SNOWSKIN BEFORE I WILL PERSONALLY KNOCK ON YOUR DOOR AT 12 MIDNIGHT AND SHAKE YOU TILL YOU WAKE UP! (:

If I could I would make a mooncakemakingmachine and give mooncakes to everybody around the world. It is a sin to waste this delicacy. ):

Thankfully, I have finished mooncakes, have mooncakes near me, and will have mooncakes waiting for me.

I'll grow fatter happily :D

mugging in process

2009-10-01T15:58:00.001+08:00

Never felt so betrayed and disappointed before. You know what, I don't care, you can go on with your bloody hypocrism and be ohsoperfect. Go on, cross the line of being nice to being a hypocrite who backstabs everyone who has a mistaken perception of you; why should I care, since you don't regard me as anyone worth your attention anyway?

It's pretty obvious how much resentment I have against you, so if you still don't get it, you're truly the most idiotic person I've ever met in my life.
Okay done, back to mugging humanities! I won't kill anymore of my brain cells, and I definitely won't let any plastic bitches get me down.

lets be high, laughter burns calories

2009-09-28T21:03:00.001+08:00

Stupid Cake Mania one more month to pass tht level kns T.T All my effort went down the drain...gah.

Drama performance was okay:D We didn't flunk majorly I guess, except the onion rolled onto the floor and became a soccer ball! Our sad play became a funny one. (dont know what expression to put here).

HSSRP @ V's hse was very fun -_- Everytime do project dont know do until what, got candlelight dinner somemore. Haha, tired with a big dose of endorphins! (:

Golden nugget of the Day: Macdonalds has very poor delivery service.

Late night again. Whatthehell, I think sleep is a waste of time. 8hours gone when you can be doing something else.

back from boomzland

2009-09-27T22:14:00.001+08:00

Hello :D
After much deliberation I decided to start blogging again cos I feel very weird without my blog :/
But my hiatus blogskin was very simple and cleancut right! :D :D :D
I loved it man!

Anyway, revision is going badly because of...(drum rolls):

Cake Mania!

Sigh, I love the cakes in there.

Thank goodness there's Homelearning on Tuesday (:

Whatever, I don't have the time, energy, or interest in talking to stupid people like you.

2009-09-21T17:46:00.002+08:00

Hello dearies will be attempting to kick my blogging bug in the ass.
Goodbye! See you soon I guess.

Felicia

P.S: Because I can't resist..

21 MORE DAYS TO EOY

2009-09-21T16:59:00.001+08:00

Finished History EOY paper, read through all the Geography notes for this year (what the hell my memory is failing me!) and the 2 Chinese stories I want to use. Still need to finish Geog worksheets and study for Math Quiz! ): I dont know why I like revising all the other subjects EXCEPT Maths. And I have no idea whether I'm revising everything correctly.

Okay busy week ahead slap me if I update again! I've been reading too much celebrity gossip T.T

i wish holidays were here. cant even rot in peace.

Fine I just dont want to sleep

2009-09-19T23:12:00.003+08:00

Re-read Breaking Dawn. And you know what? Suddenly I find that, like, while the storyline is good, the romance makes you go "Aww..." and Edward is hot, the fourth book was very...descriptive? Like Stephenie Meyer was just trying to finish up the series quickly and give readers a perfect-but too surreal-ending. K dont know what crap I'm talking but the feelings I get from reading B.D this time was more critical than in my previous readings.

You know what I think I like novelty these days. Like once I get something I suddenly don't want it anymore. Because, maybe it's not "forbidden fruit" and loses its appeal? ._."

Wth I think Im falling in love with Buddha's leg. I keep hugging it at the last minute. Sounds abit wrong.

For Monday

1.Read Chinese stories
2.Geography Revision
3. SF, LIN, SC revision

2009-09-18T20:34:00.002+08:00

EOYS are coming soon ): And I'm still slacking! My resolution to mug hard for this time ~~to make up for my horrendous results last term~~ has flown to Felogyland -_- Goodness, I have no self-discipline or resolution at all!

We're still going to Malacca in November lah! How cool is that?! I thought all hope was lost alr when our trip was cancelled due to H1N1. A big hug to whatever teacher(s) who had decided to let us go in the end :)

Drama is quite screwed up, watched the other grps' performances and ours was rather lacking! The scenes are quite choppy and our acting is a bit off. But I'd really like to tell every group member that it's not only the end result, but also the process, which was so enjoyable and bonded us together. Our story is OURS and we should believe in it! I hope that even if we don't get into Drama Fest, we'll still have fun performing and do our best. (:

Okay because I'm in a good mood and will not spoil my mood by going to study, here's a list of authors I like! It's not exhaustive though.

1. Meg Cabot
2. Sarah Dessen
3. Rachel Gibson (warning: steamy)
4. Sophie Kinsella
5. Melissa Hill
6. Jodi Picoult
7. Cecilia Ahern
8. Dorothy Koomson
9. Jennifer Weiner
10. Laura Ingalls Wilder (when I was a kid, an all-time fav)

You guys should really check their books out!

finding neverland

2009-09-14T18:46:00.000+08:00

This is the Coach Felicia bag (: See, they named it after me!! The black one is nicer, though :D

In preparation for Bio blocks and whatnot, I'll try not to blog too often (well i have nothing to update anyway). So see you all in a few weeks or maybe lesser, if CCA stops earlier.

MUCHLOVE! (:

we need pills to make it through the night

2009-09-12T18:33:00.000+08:00

Book recommendation: Twenties Girl by Sophie Kinsella (chick lit)

I don't like strenuous exercise, like running a marathon or whatever, because I'm physically unfit and have no stamina to speak of. T.T But still. It would be nice to get a rush of adrenalin/endorphins at the moment, because I'm feeling very stone and lazy and lethargic.

Subject combinations is driving me crazy. Everybody know what they want and some people I know even have a childhood ambition! And then there's me with my fantasies of owning Felogy Commercial Empire and becoming a toilet cleaner.

I used to want to be a teacher (actually I still want to), but everyone goes, "EEEE, you want to be a TEACHER?!" like its some pest-infested occupation even charkwayteow sellers puke at. (sorry about the charkwayteow im hungry)

Then I wanted to be a psychologist, but my mom said her friend's daughter became a bit mentally unstable (-_-") after studying psychology and ill be too emotionally involved anyway. So there goes my heroic ambition of wanting to help depressed people about to kill themselves.

After the Felogy CU thing & toilet cleaner fetish, we arrive at the decent, respectable, and lovely ambition: pediatrician. Doctoring young children/babies and earning a decent income and being a doctor-sounds good right? But ITS MEDICINE! IM SO STUPID HOW DO I GET INTO MED SCH OR STH!

And then there's law. But I've never wanted to be a lawyer anyway. I find the judge's wigs very funny. So diao -_- when I saw the huge pool of law grads on tv!

Ah Ha! How about journalism?

Gah dont know why subject combinations lead to so much gabble. Hate mugging, hate it hate it hate it hate it and im not even doing it ):

brighter discontent

2009-09-10T20:01:00.001+08:00

I like this rendition!

Finished reading Handle With Care by Jodi Picoult a few days back. It was quite a good read but the ending was like, WHAT THE?! And I would have kept the 8million dollars :/ Now trying to find more books to read; any recommendations?

Drama these few days has been so totally awesome! Okay, the frustrating parts were quite annoying, so were the re-acting parts (esp. clarice and yingxuan who had to run for the lights and music), but our group got to bond alot :D I think even if we don't make it to DramaFest, I'll remember this entire experience forever :)

Holidays are coming to an end in like 3 more days. Idk if its been a productive week or not! D: Math-wise, its been quite a flop, but at least I'm motivated to mug the other subjects:) Now that there's no more drama prac, I can finally sleep real late, try to revise more bio and do WS SF1 and LN1.

I'm not a diehard fan of Kpop, but omg Haruharu by Big Bang is so nice! I don't like the rapping parts but the chorus is...catchy. HAHA. And we're going to use it in our Drama soundtrack too! :D

I hate

2009-09-09T15:29:00.004+08:00

Insects

Not having my own space at home, but having every little detail about my life magnified for the whole world to see.

People who walk in and out of my life like nobody's business.

Selfishness.

Those who don't give a shit how their words and actions are affecting others.

But a big thank you to drama people for making the day so fun and enjoyable :D Though I still cant act properly -_- Went to KAP for lunch with Xueen, Jialing and Peishan! The s _ _ thing, mugging, careers, subject combo, suicide, attempted gossip, chemistry, peishan's pepsi (omg alliteration) and all: MUCHLOVE! (:

supersonic whisper

2009-09-07T19:44:00.002+08:00

After endless brainstorming, I have yet to find my passion.

I mean, I can't write: my passion is eating/sleeping/stoning/slacking right?

I also cannot write money. $_$ Although I live and breathe for money and believe that money makes the world go round. Regardless of what famous philosophers say, I think money is important ;) I rank it very highly on my List of Things to be Ranked Highly.

You know friday I went for my baby cousin's 满月dinner, hes so small, wrinkled and red it’s hard to tell whether he’s a girl or boy-all you see is a little bundle swaddled in white blankets with a thick diaper. But he has a very gentle, sweet face-hope he doesn’t grow up to be a wuss. D:

But he's going to be real smart; he plans strategies to keep getting carried and cuddled!

1. Close eyes and pretend to be asleep in cot
2. Wait until all adults have left the room
3. One minute later, start screaming and crying for Mummy
4. Smile contentedly once in someone’s arms (doesn’t matter who)
5. Stifle the smile; wail pitifully if adult shows intention of putting you back in the cot

Got to catch up with my other cousins as well. (: They're incredibly amusing hahaha.
Crap I've wasted so much time. LINEARGRAPHS T.T

schedule

2009-09-06T10:35:00.007+08:00

What on earth is my passion?

1) Indices, SC, QG, LG, Algebra, SF, LE, SE

2) Biology (4 topics)

3) LA Speech-Passion

4) Chinese SIA Presentation

5) WS SF1

6) WS LIN

7) Biology Class Assignment

8) Biology Revision Paper

9) History essay questions

10) Geography (Rivers)

11) Physics

12) Chemistry

13) Chinese

courtesy all the way

2009-09-04T20:20:00.004+08:00

My rice at dinner was drenched with soy sauce ): Ewww so sweet I couldn't breathe. And no soup somemore!

Ok proper update (if you missed yesterday's one too bad HEHEHE)

1. IVP FAIR

What a waste of time, had to go early because poster was on display. The other Nanyang people were very nice and I had a pretty good time with them! (cant say vice versa though bleagh) 5 of us took this 8-seater cab to NTU, first time in such a taxi hehheh.

Everything was last-minute cos we didnt know what to prepare and all so we were not as well-rehearsed as the other schools :/ But while it was boring waiting for the little people (pri sch kids) to come it was actually enjoyable introducing the product to passersby.

Actually it was a bit like this:

Scenario One

*Little person 1 comes near poster looking curious*
*Cue to ask if she needs help*

Me: Hello! Do you need an explanation?
LP1: *looks terrified and runs off*
Me: Did I just scare someone away? (!?!!)

Scenario Two

*Little persons come near poster looking curious*
*Cue to ask if they need help*

Me: Hello! Do you need an explanation?
LP: *giggle giggle* No thanks!! (in bimbo voice) *runs off*
Me: -_-"

Scenario Three

Me: Hello! Do you need an explanation?
LP: Uh ok.
Me: ________________
LP: Now can I take a picture of your product? So cute!

(IF YOU WANTED A PHOTO TELL ME LAH WASTE MY TIME AND EFFORT!!)

Scenario Four

Nobody came to our booth T.T

But then thankfully there was free food and drinks. Lunch and tea provided. So it wasn't that bad hehheh:) Then the other ivp ppl arrived and finally got puilin to help me! After the seminar, visitors became more of adults and secsch students, so sad ): Missed the little people. Er then it was freaking hot because we had the darkblue NY blazer on and all looked so cheena.

Ah, and then there was the giant walking condom and being chased out of the room like illegal immigrants, but lets not go into that.

Yup then after the whole thing went home with Ser and Pui. This traffic guy told us excitedly that we could take the NTU shuttle bus for free to pioneer mrt! At the prospect of a free ride our eyes lit up and we happily got on the bus. Then we went around NTU until we realised we were going in a circle and asked the bus uncle and turns out the bus only circulates around the campus.

So we 白白浪费了 almost 40 minutes.

And so we alighted and took 179 instead. Wth): Time = money, precious time lost = precious $$ lost!!

2. THE BANANA SUIT

Student Council members have the opportunities to wear The banana suit.
You know, the yellow formal blazer + white skirt + black heels + stockings, to represent our school?

I have a fetish for the Banana Suit.

ITS SO PRETTY AND GRAND AND ELEGANT! I fell in love with it the moment I saw it. It's become one of my ambitions to wear the suit before I leave Nanyang. We almost got to wear it today! But because the council ppl needed for the SAP thinggum so not enough for us ): SO NEAR YET SO FAR LEH.

(drops tears of sorrow and heartache)

I have no idea when is the next time I can represent NY in anything. If I don't get to wear the Banana, I'll be very sad.

):

3. GRANDPA @ THE GATE

On my way home I had to ask the security guard to open the gate for me cos I didnt have the card. Then this grandpa who was sitting at the guardhouse went, "You're from Nanyang!" And for the next 10mins or so, I got this Special lecture from the security guard (shes such a longwinded aunty) and the elderly person who told me to work hard because there are alot of intelligent people in Nanyang and I should put in effort so I could get a scholarship like his granddaughter, who is very capable and scored A1 for her Chinese and English in Olevels. (which means she must be in uni or sth cos she wasnt in IP)

Of course they said all that in a very beat-around-the-bush way.

Poor bush.

4. EYE CANDY

ARGH I should have seen your name! Stupid.

thank you

2009-09-03T16:06:00.002+08:00

I've realised lately that I rely alot on the people around me and I haven't exactly been very reciprocrative of their help. I guess I was too busy wallowing in pressure and bemoaning my stressful life, sometimes choosing to give in and looking at their negative sides instead. But when it comes down to it, I really appreciate being able to hold on to you guys tightly through everything. With much love, a very big thankyou to everyone who has stood by me even as I cracked:) Your patience and assistance means a whole lot to me! :D

And I cross my fingers that I will have you darlings around for a long time into the future. Heh heh. I do have alot to be grateful for :)

On a slightly different note, IVP FAIR TOMORROW WHATTHEHELL.

teachers day=fun!

2009-08-31T18:40:00.002+08:00

Happy Teachers' Day! :)

Celebrations were really fun, especially the awards part hehheh :) I think I was screeching with laughter like a parrot -_- The MCs were very high and good at arousing the enthusiasm in us! The not-so-fun part was running around the school, up and down the stairs, just to give our teachers the pack of cookies):

Went back to nhps with the other nanyang girls! Met the other 6f07 people there. Mrs Kheng and Mrs Tan havent changed much, but the school has, generally, and there's the indoor sports stadium too (didnt go into it though). Alot of new teachers too! Then after that went to Jurong Point for a class lunch @ Pizza Hut. I love the Baked Rice :D :D :D

chocolate channel

2009-08-29T22:48:00.002+08:00

Baked bourbon (?) chocolate cookies today :) It was really messy and took a lot of time but we managed to make quite alot, and it was fun hehheh. A big thank-you to Ser's maid, mom and brother for their help (though they'll never read this!) Hardly did any work today, thats bad ):

Initially wanted to go see the newest addition to the family, my baby cousin :D He's premature and according to my mom and aunt, very tiny but cute. Hope Elton will grow up healthily to become a shuaige! :D

P.S: Should I create a photolog? No cam-whoring, but I can upload more random pictures.

For once, For ever

2009-08-28T20:16:00.000+08:00

Subject combi talk part 2 today, made me even more 苦恼 because while I know I dont want trip sci idk what I shld take. It doesn't help that when I say I want history/alit everyone goes "omg r u serious?" Goodness, a life-changing decision @ Sec Two? -_-"

Got back LA results too, I can't say I did very badly because there are people who got lower, or maybe even failed, but I really felt disappointed in myself because I had high expectations for LA. I knew I wouldn't get a superhigh mark, but I was hoping inside that some miracle would appear, after all the bad things that have happened these days, and all the crying I've been doing as well -.- While everyone says it's my best subject, I really dont have any confidence in it, and guess this test just proves myself right. This block test was a stark contrast to BT 1, but I'm not going to wallow in self pity anymore and work harder for next term, so even if I fail I won't have any regrets.

Whatever. Training was okay, but I nearly killed Audrey and Jieyi. So sorry! D:

Oh and if I seem emoish/depressed recently, dont worry, I'm just spacing out. :) I will bounce back and show that I'm not hopeless. If I can bring myself to study harder and stop procrastinating, that is.

:D

forgotten corners

2009-08-26T17:52:00.001+08:00

friday updating back in place.

stupid maths, no choice.

photos and update

2009-08-25T21:28:00.003+08:00

I LOVE RETARDED PHOTOS.

Dreamt about getting a lovely puppy named Bonbon for my birthday present from my parents (and grandmother whoa) and they were saying "Because you want a pet so much and we believe you are responsible enough (hello? wallet?), here's your fatassed dog!" ._. Omg I was so high lah! Then just when I was reaching out for the dog I woke up whatthehell?

Anyway, I have come up with a motto for myself haha.

"Thou shalt not wallow in self-pity".

Oh and I'll probably be locking my blog soon because I can't stand LJ's system problems and there are some sensitive issues I would prefer not to disclose to the world.

Baking with Serene this Saturday for teachers day! :)

tempting heart and confessions

2009-08-23T10:43:00.000+08:00

Calvin: Dad? Remember our car?
Dad: Yes....wait-What do you mean by "remember"?

Calvin: Let's say I did something very bad to the car.
Hobbes: How bad?
Calvin: Well, assuming we can find it...

HELLO:)

Crabflower Club was awesome. The acting was great, the soundandlight effects were appropriate, and the story was interesting; although there was no main point. And everyone really let their hair down and had fun outside the classroom, which was good! :) We didn't get to take a grp photo though ):

Walked around Bugis Junction before the play, bought this greentea with milk from Jollibean. OMG the cup was so SMALL (cute but well) and THERE WAS NO TASTE OF GREEN TEA AT ALL. It so wasn't value for money lah! I'm never going to buy that greentea thinggum anymore ): At least not from Jollibean.

Yeah then after the performance went to Bugis Junction again to walk around. I love the Uzumaki milk tea ice cream! The pearls were so "crunchy" and unlike the normal bubble tea pearls. The ice cream was a bit tasteless though. I want to try the green tea one next :D :D :D Yeah then took neoprints before going to PastaMania for dinner :D Had the spicy fish baked pasta which was ok, quite yummy, but very filling.

After that went home with Puillin on the NYheartbeat train!! We were like lunatics trying to photograph the "Nanyang Family of Schools" thing on the train windows. It was so cool; we practically own the train HAHAHAHA :)

Photos up soon!

thou shalt not commit prejudice

2009-08-21T19:36:00.000+08:00

ohmygod im so excited for tomorrow!
im kind of nervous though haha; everything i look forward to either ends up as a disappointment or doesnt happen (the way i wanted it). but i think the play's going to be quite interesting and 1/2 of 210 is going!:)

going to apply for new ezlink card tmr. whoever took my wallet and did not return it, i hope you're happy now. you have no sense of integrity or sensitivity at all. aren't you a bit too greedy? take the money, but have the decency to RETURN MY WALLET TO THE GENERAL OFFICE. is this your first day in nanyang? grr. im going to hang on to my handphone and wallet for dear life next time haha :/

xueen's birthday tmr :) it seems like everybody's 14 now, except for yours truly. i wonder if ill feel any different on my birthday? -_-

anyway, blogsong title is because im stupid (piano version). i dont like, adore korean bands, but this song has a really sad and memorable tune AHHH. and no, i dont listen to the real song, just this one lol!

oh and if you like gossip girl, you may like this 8-novel series pretty little liars. its suspenseful and thrilling but a bit draggy and gets repetitive at times. i spent the last few days reading it!

P.S: got back all the subjects except langarts already. guess what? im deepfried, BBQ-ed, steamed, roasted, grilled and baked. this isn't false modesty, by the way.

passion play

2009-08-19T15:36:00.003+08:00

belated happy birthday vania!
thanks for being such a cute, funny, witty, interesting, cheery, helpful and kind friend and sticking with me throughout, we've certainly had our fair share of tears and laughter together. really hope you'll always be my friend and be happy no matter what; all the best for band, for EOYs, for everything you're working towards! :D

anyway, on a slightly less positive note,
return me my wallet damn. (!)

it's like rain on your wedding day

2009-08-16T14:11:00.001+08:00

Ive changed my blogskin wahhoooooooooooooooo! :)
Do leave a tag if you have a suggestion to improve the layout etc. :D

Urgh flu and headache now, I killed so many trees already! Guess it can't be helped since my whole family is sick. Seems like it's always my brother who starts falling sick, then my mom, then my grandma and dad. And of course, my turn. -.-

Dont know if I can go for trng tmr. Gah.

Oh, and apparently there's a hurricane named after ME. I mean it's not a surprise because I'm Felicia The Fabulous, but seriously, a hurricane, after the great me? :O That's cool. Now my name's all over Google. Oh well. It's an honor I dream not of!

Hurricane Felicia was the strongest tropical cyclone of the 2009 Pacific hurricane season and the strongest in the eastern Pacific since Hurricane Daniel in 2006. Forming on August 3 as Tropical Depression Eight-E, the system quickly developed deep convection. By the following morning, the depression became a tropical storm, receiving the name Felicia.

Wow.

awesomeness is us

2009-08-14T20:24:00.006+08:00

A Friday update about the entire week.

1. Udders Ice Cream and Chocolate Chip Cookies!

Went to Puilin's house on Monday to bake cookies; had Udders ice cream @ West Mall before that. It was really, really nice; Serene and Puilin didn't like the green tea one cos it was quite bitter, but I like it alot, it tastes like, well, tea, and not some flavoured ice cream. :) Green Tea always goes well with everything haha! Yeah, and then the Chocolate Marshmallow one was also very nice, the chocolate is very thick, between milk and dark chocolate, and there's none of your artificial sugary taste. It's creamy and the marshmallows just melt in your mouth.

The chocolate chip cookies weren't very difficult to bake, but it's because of Puilin's mom's expertise, and it did take a lot of patience and time. Smelt really good, though they do taste better after a few days! I'm inspired to become a pastry chef hahah; another crazy ambition zz -_-

Haven't got any photos of the cookies yet so I won't be posting them!

2. Founders Day

Today we celebrated Founder's Day haha! Had NYGH Funfair, bought food, a squishie (Felefubby!), a rubber wrist thinggum (-.-) and cheered like crazy hahah. 210 sold fries, nachos and sausages withorwithout cheese :D We sold out pretty quickly I think, but didn't make much money compared to other classes! My face has sunburn ):

From various sources:

Oh and for more NDP pics refer to Facebook haha, lots of 210ers uploaded stuff!

3. Down the Dumps

Math results yesterday. Let's just say there was alot of heartache and some tears haha...1 more mark and so much difference! It's crazy -.- And to think it was because of one stupid dumb error.

Anyway, I hope I'll get back the other bad subjects first. At least things can't get any worse than those, hopefully!

Oh and one more thing. Don't you think it's annoying when some people get skyhigh grades compared to you, and they are like, "Oh my God I did so badly I want to die!" ? Well, they're top in the list of my pet peeves ok! False modesty is not only pathetic, it's also nauseating. It makes you want to bow down to them and award them the Most Irritating Airheads Alive award.

4. Coach R's birthday!

Celebrated coachie's birthday today! Training was as per usual lah, then after our run arnd SP we surprised him with a cake courtesy of alicia and linghan :) The cake was nice haha but I'm not a diehard fan of sponge cake, the card which Yinghui made was very cute and sunshiney! Then took batch photos etc. I luv NYSQ!

5. Clouds

I really love watching clouds!! I've always liked them but it was only recently that I appreciated them even more. I guess they connect with me and my imagination in a way people never do, and watching the sky is a great way to forget all your woes. Sometimes the clouds even form astoundingly real shapes, like a ship, a seahorse, or a cat :O I know clouds are made up of water vapour lah, but I wonder how it would feel if the clouds were cotton and you could bounce on them? ._.

That's all, have a good weekend ahead! :)

2009-08-09T10:23:00.000+08:00

I LOVE 210'09!! (:

national day celebrations were fun :D everyone was so high! and gwen looked so cute as the mascot heheh.
sam baked chocolate cookies and muffins for the class! :D and mr ng allowed us to paint his bald plate ;O
watched UP with yinghui after that :) it was so cute :S they played this short animation called "partly cloudy" before the movie, you should watch it, its so sweet :)

sry for the short update, i think ill post the pictures when ive gotten all of them :/ going to watch hotshot laterr; yeah i know im so late haha. and i still need to translate manga..40more chapters! ):

we're so over

2009-08-06T20:42:00.001+08:00

Hello normads! :)

Chemistry was bad, maybe even worse than math. But I shall not dwell on my misery -_-

Instead I'm going to attempt ~~not to bang my head on the table~~ to enjoy slacking! (i.e doing nothing but stoning, eating and more stoning)

At this rate I'm going to become an even bigger dumpling ): I think swimming makes my shoulders broader grr I shall abstain and try skipping instead heheheh.

Ooh yes after sch most of the 210ers went for the movie screening of romeo and juliet 1968 version! Omg, Leonardo Whiting looks like Zac Efron hahaha. (see above) Everyone in the audi (except for Mr Ng obv-.-) went in a synchronised sigh, "So shuai.." when he appeared HAHA! :D Oliva Hussey was also really pretty leh; they say she hardly uses makeup when acting and yet her complexion is awesome.

My favourite part was still the donkey scene LOL. Romeo was riding his superfast big brown horse gallantly and Friar John was walking and leading this pathetic grey old donkey ._. Obv cannot reach Romeo in time lah! No ~~donkey~~ cow sense at all.

Wheee now reading some new manga series I found. I don't care what people think about manga/anime fans-isn't it the same as reading a book, except its in picture format? Somemore shoujo manga is so sweet lah!

Ahh okay that's all. Watching Up with Yinghui tomorrow, yipeee! :)

Math, LA and Geog

2009-08-05T15:11:00.000+08:00

Today was really bad...LA was okay, pretty easy but I'm not sure if I can do well. Geography, I totally screwed the climograph thingo and the last qn!! Math was a piece cow+dog+pig shit for me. Refer to below for Geog and Math evaluation (-_-)

(a) I'm horrible at estimation. I didn't write the total amt of rainfall.
(b) CONIFEROUS and CONE-SHAPED trees and SLOPING CONE-STRUCTURE. Why was I so freaking stupid to put decidious?!
(c) I forgot to do math qn 8(d), (e) and (f)(i) and (ii). And realised it like one minute before "Times up girls!"
(d) Those were worth at least 5 marks.
(e) I ended up with an answer that is onehundredpercent wrong for a 5m qn.

I was so horribly depressed I cried after math test. It's really heartpain to see your marks flying away, not because you havent mugged like some despo crap but because you freaking spent your time unwisely and had shorttermmemory at the wrong time. All your effort went down the drain, and if you had not wasted so much time you could have finished the paper/wrote the correct thing (refer to (c) and (b))

And it was even worse because as you were feeling like jumping off some random building there are people going "eh question 5 is ___ right? yah i also got that! woohoo! the paper so easy!"
woohoo, go and stuff your head into the bin lah! -.-

Chemistry tomorrow. Going to spend the night studying so I won't flunk it as badly as Math! D:

history and chinese

2009-08-04T14:22:00.001+08:00

Today was History and Chinese blocks! D:
Chinese was actually okay, except I panicked (as usual) and started doing random questions in random sections instead of starting from Qn1 like everyone else -_-
I was scared no time mah! :/
This time the teacher who set the paper must be really evil lor, there were lots of questions which made me very confused, like when you decide on one answer another option pops up which looks acceptable too.
I think I tore out so much hair I need to go for Yun Nam Hair Care ):

Then history, everyone was scribbling frantically and I was still contemplating whether I should do SBQ or Essay first, after I finished definitions! I can't write legibly without correction tape leh, I had to draw tons of arrows and clouds so my answer makes a little more sense -_-" But at least the questions all of us predicted correctly and mugged for already.

Does items=basic necessities? :S

Ah okay better stop wasting time now my goodness. Quadratic Graphs! T.T

bugs love loopholes

2009-08-02T00:09:00.001+08:00

(click to enlarge)

i freaking hate insects!
they suddenly appear in front of me and make me scream as if 见鬼 like that.
D:
arghh i used to avoid killing ants because they're not as big and disgusting,
but now even bugs and flies want to join the party! :S
i think its because the estate is surrounded by so many trees and plants,
all the insects treat our homes like hotels -_-"

NOW IM ITCHING ALL OVER BECAUSE OF THE CREEPYCRAWLIES (!!!)

that particular fly-bug which parachuted and landed on my laptop is still nowhere to be found, despite my repeated attempts to ~~scream at it and wish it would disappear miraculously~~ get rid of it. ):
how now brown cow i wont be able to sleep without dreaming of marrying a bug! T.T

Cow jump over the moon

2009-07-31T17:04:00.005+08:00

HELLO DARLINGS (:

Okay the worst of my mood swing is finally over haha. Feeling really stressed because I've got so much things to memorise and do in just 3 days :/ I think I'll be over the moon once blocks are over!

(imagines flying over the moon)

But now I'm living on the undergrowth layer of a tropical rainforest. Its the 5th layer of the forest, below the emergent, canopy, undercanopy, and shrub layers. The undergrowth in a rainforest is restricted in many areas by the lack of sunlight at ground level, so you can imagine how life for me is now. I'm getting too obsessed with Geography.

And also, I realised (once again) today how freaking horrible my maths is. I totally detest Similarity and Congruency; they somehow manage to twist questions into such a way that you cant comprehend it, when the answer is actually relatively simple. I nearly 心脏病爆发 after learning after today's quiz that I got 3/4 of everything WRONG! ): Here's a glimpse into my plan for the weekend:

Today: Geography & History Revision, Chinese Paper

Saturday: Revise and do PT, V & SC, Chemistry Revision

Sunday: Revise and do QG & LG, Chinese and LA Revision

Monday: History and Chinese Revision

I'm such a no-life freak. D:

oh yes!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY YINGHUI & LINGAN! :)

Yinghui: Thanks for being such an awesome batchie, cheering us all up with your contagious laughter (hoohoo!)and having a great sense of humor. I love your integrity, straightforwardness, bubblyness and willingness to work hard for what you want! :D Good luck for squash and never give up yo :D

Lingan: Thanks for being such an hyper, responsible and cute batchie, setting a fabulous example for us with your fabulous squash skills HAHA :) Jy for squash and council and do NY proud man :D

incurable gossip

2009-07-30T21:21:00.001+08:00

I used to think that the people closest to you would be the ones who would cheer you up when you were down, know when you were upset and do their best to help you get over stuff. But now I feel that they are the ones who hurt you the most, and they dont even know it. Maybe those who dont know you as well are the people that really make you feel like you're loved, while those whom you thought understood you encourage you to wallow in self-hatred.

I dont understand how you can hate or love something/someone so much at the same time. When I see you, I feel like screaming, laughing and crying. I dont know how I can face you anymore without all my feelings written over my face. The amount of emotions coursing through me is scary, I dont even know what kind of person I have evolved into. You know you're on a one-way ticket to self-destruction when you can't recognise who you are anymore.

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I think I'm really stupid for spending half my life chasing after things I can never get. When will I ever learn?

wishlist

2009-07-25T22:53:00.003+08:00

Just read Songs of a Humpback Whale by Jodi Picoult. Other than Vanishing Acts, I found it the worst book she has ever written.

Ok, to be fair its not that bad. It's actually quite tolerable. But since I hate third parties and "what-could-have-been" situations, I hate the storyline. How can she kill off Hadley when he's so perfect for Rebecca! ): And why on Earth did Jane go back to bloody Oliver?!

piece of cow dung :S

[Note: Friday's post on LJ since Blogger wasn't working]